Slept so Long

I don't even know why I cut myself a couple of times just now. I think it was to see myself bleed again. I admit, I miss the kick that bleeding gives me. Like drugs.
But I know that these couple of scratches on my thighs will be still visible for a week or so. Probably Andy will ask. What will I say? No idea. But I don't care. I missed the taste. I think I'll say just that.

Maybe my sanity is slipping again. It has been a long time since I felt a further slip. Interesting that it is a one way road. Just deeper and deeper down. I thought that I had hit a mental plateau. Now I guess that not anymore. Hmm...

I guess that I am feeling high.

I'll be waking up in 5 hours again. Should go and sleep, but not feeling like doing it. Feeling like I want to listen to Queen of the Damned soundrack over and over again. Dance the night away in candlelight.

Just four days to go

...

I've slept so long without you.

I see hell in your eyes
Taken in by surprise
Touching you makes me feel alive
Touching you makes me die inside