Sunday, 3 April 2011
Slept so Long
I don't even know why I cut myself a couple of times just now. I think it was to see myself bleed again. I admit, I miss the kick that bleeding gives me. Like drugs.
But I know that these couple of scratches on my thighs will be still visible for a week or so. Probably Andy will ask. What will I say? No idea. But I don't care. I missed the taste. I think I'll say just that.
Maybe my sanity is slipping again. It has been a long time since I felt a further slip. Interesting that it is a one way road. Just deeper and deeper down. I thought that I had hit a mental plateau. Now I guess that not anymore. Hmm...
I guess that I am feeling high.
I'll be waking up in 5 hours again. Should go and sleep, but not feeling like doing it. Feeling like I want to listen to Queen of the Damned soundrack over and over again. Dance the night away in candlelight.
Just four days to go
I've slept so long without you.
I see hell in your eyes
Taken in by surprise
Touching you makes me feel alive
Touching you makes me die inside